Revelations rather than resolutions

I keep a small notebook in my purse.  I write little notes to myself, grocery lists, to do lists and often any variety of resolution type lists.  Flipping back through the notebook is a bit like looking back in time--where I was and where I thought I was going.  The thing is, I having been going--or at least trying to go--the same direction for too long.  And the reality is I just don't think I have ever really arrived.

For the last 10 years, I have been trying to, in no particular order:  get healthy, get organized, be more involved in my community and, since I have had kids, spend more quality time with my children.  This year I am not making resolutions. I am working towards revelations... what is it that allows me to accomplish or not accomplish what I set out as goals?

So here is the first one: I am not type A or detail-oriented.  Sometimes I have been described as such, and the fact that I am a researcher gives this illusion.  But in reality my best thinking is very global and vision oriented.  The thing is, I really need some type A in my life.  I need some structure, even in small ways like labels on the outside of my drawers proclaiming their content, in order to function.  It is almost as if the fact that my brain seems to like big vision thinking means it needs lots of help just to get through the day.  And when I am really honest with myself, which after all is the point of looking for revelation, I am just a little lazy.  The bit of structure really just needs a smidgen of time, to sit down and plan.  Why am I lazy though?  What drives this aversion to following routine, planning schedules, pre-packing my bag at night?  This part I am not sure about...more thinking for further revelation needed.

There are no shortage of people, websites, products or devices promising to help you reach your goals, be more organized or, more basically, find structure.  The National Association of Professional Organizers, which I imagine to be so filled with type A people that they actually annoy themselves at meetings, has declared January to be "get organized" month and has a pretty nifty blog with tips and tricks: http://napogetorganized.com/2014/01/01/2014-is-here-and-its-time-to-go/.   A search of the app store for "Organization" yields a mind boggling number of apps.  I found one that I find somewhat useful in trying to set broad daily goals like "take my vitamins".  It works by creating a red light vs. green light dashboard for any habits you are trying to either acquire or break.  This appeals to my desire for some structure, but does not offend my free thinking ways.  But in the end all of this is really just a means to back to making resolutions.  It seems to me that if you really want to revolutionize who you are, whether by working out more, eating better, spending more time together as a family or being more engaged at work then all of this requires you to first discover why? Why do this and why aren't you doing this now?  Sure this path is probably long and it is uncertain in its process, but maybe understanding yourself is worth it.